To my precious Rainbow Baby:
“If you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you could say to this mountain ‘Move from here to there’ and it WILL move. Nothing will be impossible for you.” – Matthew 17:20
For the past 268 days, you’ve grown from the size of a little mustard to seed to now the size of a pumpkin! Each day since the moment your Daddy and I found out I was pregnant with you, life has felt so surreal, scary, joyful, and such a blessing. You my little rainbow, are truly such a blessing and we cannot wait to meet you.
After the loss of your sister, I never thought this day would come. I never thought your Daddy or I would be walking back through those hospital doors, but soon you will be here and in our arms. Losing your sister was not an easy time in our lives, it could best be described as a devastating storm. We weren’t sure of what the future would bring, but we never gave up hope that one day we would have a family.
And just like how a rainbow follows a storm, we found out that we were expecting you!
You little one, gave us so much hope of what’s to come.
Little one, I hope and pray that your life will be full of nothing but joy and happiness. I hope that I will be a good mother to you and teach you all that life can offer. I cannot wait to see you and your brother make memories, to see all your firsts, to see you smile and start the day. I cannot wait to watch you grow, watch you learn, and most of all, to be your mother.
Little one, I want you to know that there will be times when life gets tough. Sometimes the world works in ways that seem very unfair to the kindest of people. I want you to know that no matter what, don’t ever give up. There will be days that will be stormy, but you my little one, are a beautiful rainbow after a storm. You started life off as a mustard seed and each and every day you are growing bigger, and stronger. Don’t ever give up because nothing will be impossible for you!
Do not ever think you are a mistake in this world or not meant to be. You are a very beautiful and special soul that has brought our little family so much joy since the moment we found out we were pregnant with you. Yes, we may over worry at times, but you my little one, are a very precious gift. Little one, just like a rainbow after a storm, you are destined to bring joy and hope to the future.
We love you so very much, and cannot wait to meet you!
In five days and a wake up, (or less), we will walk through those hospital doors again not knowing what to expect, but with our hearts full of hope for our rainbow after the storm. My pregnancy after loss journey may be coming to an end, but it is only the beginning of what the future will bring us. It has been a long 38 weeks full of fear, anxiety, worry, hope, love, struggles, brave moments, courage, etc. I hope and pray with all my heart that everything goes smoothly during my scheduled c-section and that our beautiful little rainbow, Colbie, will be healthy and brought into the world knowing she is loved beyond. ❤
Never give up hope. All of our rainbow babies start off as small as a mustard seed. With faith as small as a mustard seed, anything is possible. And just like how a rainbow represents hope after a devastating storm, hope is what our little mustard seeds are.