Approaching that Important Month, July!
Reality is setting in that we are going to have our baby boy here literally so soon. This is the week that marks maternity leave for me. I can’t deny it, but I felt very nervous to have to leave my clients temporarily. As a therapist, it truly is hard. I am so used to being the one to help guide my clients and now I realize I have to be that one to take the break I so deserve. I am known to always try to do so many things at once so I know even when off maternity leave, I will be working on notes and ensuring all my clients are set up with an emergency therapist and with a primary therapist.
Also, I have been focusing on my career and what is next with that.
I have plans to start my own private practice. I never imagined being pregnant and thinking of this at the same time. At some point, I cried and prayed for these two things to happen for me where I will be licensed and have a baby. Neither happened but one did come after the other finally! I am really nesting at this point! I know for some people they may think I am not “resting”. However, I know myself. I know how quickly overwhelmed I can be. I know my life is about to change with baby boy coming into this world. Now when I think of my career, I am thinking of not only my future but also our son’s and my family. I want to be able to do what I can with the planning now so when he gets here, everything is in motion and I will not have to feel so overwhelmed.
I have to be honest, I feel like when we pray for something, we do not fully think of how everything is going to be but just wanting that prayer to come true. That’s how I was when I said my prayers. I even said I would be willing to take any sacrifices just to have our rainbow baby here on earthside with us. But, I now realize that there is always going to be something that comes up that I cannot control. I feel like focusing on what I could control at the moment or just want I want to focus on, really helps me stay in the moment.
I found myself doing a mixture of things at this 35-week mark.
Getting prepared for the maternity leave and then also getting things set up in the nursery room. I feel this is somewhat preparing me for motherhood! I will have to do so many things but have to understand when to also acknowledge that I am overwhelmed. That is what I am hoping that I do not struggle with when baby comes. So, what I do now is I say it out loud so others can know and so I can process that I am overwhelmed!
The big day is coming! But, I will do what I can when I can! That is the motto I am saying to myself as the anxiety starts to pick back up again.
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