Approaching that Important Month, July!
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Reality is setting in that we are going to have our baby boy here literally so soon. This is the week that marks maternity leave for me. I can’t deny it, but I felt very nervous to have to leave my clients temporarily. As a therapist, it truly is hard. I am so used to being the one to help guide my clients and now I realize I have to be that one to take the break I so deserve. I am known to always try to do so many things at once so I know even when off maternity leave, I will be working on notes and ensuring all my clients are set up with an emergency therapist and with a primary therapist.
Also, I have been focusing on my career and what is next with that.
I have plans to start my own private practice. I never imagined being pregnant and thinking of this at the same time. At some point, I cried and prayed for these two things to happen for me where I will be licensed and have a baby. Neither happened but one did come after the other finally! I am really nesting at this point! I know for some people they may think I am not “resting”. However, I know myself. I know how quickly overwhelmed I can be. I know my life is about to change with baby boy coming into this world. Now when I think of my career, I am thinking of not only my future but also our son’s and my family. I want to be able to do what I can with the planning now so when he gets here, everything is in motion and I will not have to feel so overwhelmed.
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I have to be honest, I feel like when we pray for something, we do not fully think of how everything is going to be but just wanting that prayer to come true. That’s how I was when I said my prayers. I even said I would be willing to take any sacrifices just to have our rainbow baby here on earthside with us. But, I now realize that there is always going to be something that comes up that I cannot control. I feel like focusing on what I could control at the moment or just want I want to focus on, really helps me stay in the moment.
I found myself doing a mixture of things at this 35-week mark.
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Getting prepared for the maternity leave and then also getting things set up in the nursery room. I feel this is somewhat preparing me for motherhood! I will have to do so many things but have to understand when to also acknowledge that I am overwhelmed. That is what I am hoping that I do not struggle with when baby comes. So, what I do now is I say it out loud so others can know and so I can process that I am overwhelmed!
The big day is coming! But, I will do what I can when I can! That is the motto I am saying to myself as the anxiety starts to pick back up again.
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