34 Weeks! Baby boy is growing and the more the weeks go by, reality sets in that this is truly happening and I must continue to believe it and embrace all of this joy! The movements and connecting with baby that way have really brought so much peace and relief knowing that baby boy is doing just fine in there. The anxiety will always be there but I find it not taking over as much as it did in the earlier weeks of the pregnancy.
This week consisted of me getting ready for my last week of work, which will be in the 35thweek mark. As a therapist, it is so hard to not see your clients for months that are working on their mental health. I just want to ensure that everything is good to go with them. It goes to show the strong devotion I have when it comes to caring for my clients. Now, there is a big step in which I am a mother who has to learn to balance her life even more which will be challenging for sure but so worth going through this next part of my journey! I Just cant wait to enjoy the last 3 weeks and getting last-minute things prepared for our prince.
I am feeling beautiful. I want to highlight on this more.
This week was also this is the week we received pictures from our maternity shoot. I must say, those pictures really had me thinking that I am really living in my testimony but even much bigger than that. Everything I tried to imagine, does not come anywhere close to how things are panning out to be. First of all, I must say I feel beautiful for the first time in my life. I can remember in the past when I dealt with verbal abuse from a family member that would call me “Ugly” all the time. That damaged me. On top of when I went through weight changes, being diagnosed with PCOS, and finding out I had fertility issues, it was clear to me that I did not want to look at myself anymore even if I had been pushing for years to love myself the way others could see me.
Looking at the maternity pictures made me realize how beautiful I am. I see a woman who has this amazing glow but full of happiness. I felt this is the person I have been waiting to see for years. The one that believes in herself! I literally had to go through so many obstacles in my life when it came to my medical and mental health. It is like I really reached out to myself and said “ You deserve the world”
I am embracing this pregnancy more than I ever thought I would.
I now see the importance of me doing this. It will not only help other women see that they are deserving to embrace their pregnancy, but it will help me realize how it’s time for me to finally “Live”.
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