Pregnancy after loss is . . .

 

Pregnancy after loss is worth it.

Beautiful.

Hopeful.

Terrifying.

Moment-by-moment.

Anxiety-provoking.

A prayer with every breath.

 

 

Fear of getting too attached.

Guilt for moving forward.

Holding your breath for 9 months. (God, please don’t let it be less.)

Learning to exhale.

 

 

Going to your OB appointments, and being flooded with memories.

Reminding yourself over and over this is a new baby, a new pregnancy, and new memories.

Feeling overwhelmed that history will repeat anyway.

A walk of faith.

 

Insomnia-inducing.

The deepest gratitude you could ever feel.

Tender.

Hard-fought for.

Innocence lost.

Socially awkward. 

 

Counting each day, each week.

Fleeting peace when you pass the date of your previous loss.

A nagging feeling that you and your baby still won’t be safe.

 

 

Possibly high-risk.

Complete panic.

Tears.

 

 

Relief at every heartbeat.

Terror that something that might go wrong.

 

 

Contractions.

Nurses touching.

Doctors prepping.

Sweat.

Tears.

Pressure.

Pulling.

Pushing.

Tearing.

Here.

Here. 

 

 

Alive.

Breathing in.

Breathing out.

6 lbs 7 oz on your chest.

Perfection.

Victory cry.

There's nothing like holding your newly born rainbow baby after a pregnancy after loss.

 

 

Pregnancy after loss is different for every woman for every pregnancy.

But one thing it is . . .

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