Pregnancy after loss is . . .
Beautiful.
Hopeful.
Terrifying.
Moment-by-moment.
Anxiety-provoking.
A prayer with every breath.
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Fear of getting too attached.
Guilt for moving forward.
Holding your breath for 9 months. (God, please don’t let it be less.)
Learning to exhale.
Going to your OB appointments, and being flooded with memories.
Reminding yourself over and over this is a new baby, a new pregnancy, and new memories.
Feeling overwhelmed that history will repeat anyway.
A walk of faith.
Insomnia-inducing.
The deepest gratitude you could ever feel.
Tender.
Hard-fought for.
Innocence lost.
Socially awkward.
Counting each day, each week.
Fleeting peace when you pass the date of your previous loss.
A nagging feeling that you and your baby still won’t be safe.
Possibly high-risk.
Complete panic.
Tears.
Relief at every heartbeat.
Terror that something that might go wrong.
Contractions.
Nurses touching.
Doctors prepping.
Sweat.
Tears.
Pressure.
Pulling.
Pushing.
Tearing.
Here.
Here.
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Alive.
Breathing in.
Breathing out.
6 lbs 7 oz on your chest.
Perfection.
Victory cry.
Pregnancy after loss is different for every woman for every pregnancy.
But one thing it is . . .
Worth it.
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