This week, we are Rhubok-ing it! At the end of our journey…nothing is in season in Canada anymore, so pretend this is rhubarb. They look similarish? I learned bok choy is an excellent source of fiber and vitamins C, K, and A, the same as rhubarb!

Carmen's Bump Day Blog, Week 38: Rhubarb vs Bok Choy

Author’s Personal Collection/Carmen Grover

Segway: We, too, are using our imaginations this week!

This babe is expanding, and with it, my horizon, for example, in the meals I make, giving me exactly what I need when I need it on this journey… cue fiber!

Family tree - Carmen's bump day blog, Week 38

Author’s Personal Collection/Carmen Grover

We’ve been pulling out the old wives’ tales and history books on this one! Getting really excited to meet our baby Rhu or Bok!!

We’re in this weird countdown, feeling ready and still in shock. It has felt so long and suddenly so fast. I want to make sure I’ve taken all the pictures and done all the “final” things to talk to this baby, while playing with my others!

Carmen's Bump Day Blog, Week 38: Rhubarb vs Bok Choy

Author’s Personal Collection/Carmen Grover

You can never do it all, and yet, in loving my babies, I feel like I always am!

Kids playing - Carmen's Bump Day Blog, Week 38: Rhubarb vs Bok Choy

Author’s Personal Collection/Carmen Grover

Bok: I’m feeling like a bit of a chicken. With my other deliveries, I didn’t necessarily know I was going to have a c-section. Now, in some ways, knowing this is what is coming is causing me more anxiety, like the day before a marathon, because I know what to expect, whereas before, I didn’t.

I’ll be OK, but to say I’m completely feeling OK about it all is not entirely true. What I do feel OK about is preventing an emergency and protecting my babe and my safety!

I know I’m having surgery and meeting baby and knowing things haven’t always been easy, so I’ve got the jitters. But, the moment this little miracle Rhubok is in my arms, that’s the moment I’ve been the surest about.

This is always an ominous time as you don’t know when it’s coming, and though I still don’t, I do, in some ways this time, know when the baby will likely be here. Maybe that’s what’s playing with my imagination.

Carmen's Bump Day Blog, Week 38: Rhubarb vs Bok Choy

Author’s Personal Collection/Carmen Grover

I used to always joke about making an app that actually tells you your “real due date,” and now I have that and it feels kind of strange to be honest.

Imaging what could be and will be, we somehow ended up with what we always imagined for us from the start, and in many ways through so much loss, we ended up with even more.

This last rainbow baby has brought me a true deep soul healing!

From the very beginning, when I found that “Get Well” balloon before you came into our lives I didn’t know what it meant–get healthier and then you’ll come? Only now I understand. Prior to and during this whole pregnancy, one day at a time I’m “getting weller.” This baby has given me this! I didn’t believe in it every step of the way nor felt worthy of it all but here I am.

I can’t slap a sticker on me and say I’m healed, as I’m always healing something. However, what I feel now is only something I never felt truly possible. It’s what my soul needed, and I believe my babies transpired to let me see and experience in the sun that is behind it all. “It’s only when it rains that we grow”…at the end of the Rainbow! ☀️ 🌈 🌧️ 🌻 🌱

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