~ As much as you nest, and as much as you do stuff, take equal time to rest ~

While wanting to get “everything” done and do the things I won’t be able to, I’ve gotten sick again. It’s a sign, forcing me to slow down!

Carmen's kiddos making pizza

I have been feeling a bit better, getting more ready, and knowing things can and will take care of themselves. I know that the chores don’t really matter as I genuinely enjoy my kids diving into the little delights like making soap, pizza, art, playing demolition, and “gramma to the baby dolls,” as I know I won’t be able to do these things for a little while.

Carmen's kids painting

Author’s Personal Collection/Carmen Grover

I took myself for what I think may be the last walk I can physically do. This both excites and saddens me for now. I’ve been wanting to swim because I know I can’t for six weeks, but I’m unable to float. It’s been the hardest time trudging through snow and water. I couldn’t take the kids swimming this week because I’m sick, and the guilt is big. But, they just love any time with me, and I must remember that.

We live in a fast-paced world and are “productive” beings, though I don’t want to be. I am working constantly on re-wiring that, and kids do help me let go, so I don’t care. But then I do care that I do care about “getting stuff done,” you know?

When your space feels good so do you. It’s all part of it. I’ve been gearing up on stuff that feels like clutter, yet it’s how I feel prepared. I’m buying kids’ toys and activities to do while babe is here, mostly out of guilt. I know I’m not going to love laying on the couch every day and feeling like I can’t do stuff with them. It’s an adjustment I just know is coming for them, that’s all. I think it’s normal to think of what I can do to make things easier for myself and my family now while “romain”ing pregnant, doing what I can and knowing all will be ok in the end!

Anytime I know something is going to not happen for awhile, it leaves me wanting it more. And yet, they are things I didn’t always do before. The novelty now, just as drinking the sweet “chard-onay,” one day soon will be, but I’ll only need one sip.

I just want to do so much before I can’t, and it’s not a bad thing. But, I must remember I’m doing the best I can, and the kids are happy with simple things. I’m excited to just snuggle on the couch with baby and will be too tired to think of anything else or care. I will feel bad when more of my focus is on little bub than my others for a while. Our hearts do grow, but our arms don’t. I’m nesting, yet maybe nesting could, in fact, be a year thing, building our home together, taking care of each other in this new space, and doing so many fun things together!

Carmen's 36-week bump - Romaine-ing Pregnant, Cool, and Calm

Author’s Personal Collection/Carmen Grover

(Pst this week was supposed to be a Swiss Chard, but it’s still a form of rabbit food)

Carmen's ripped pants at 36 weeks pregnant

Author’s Personal Collection/Carmen Grover

Also, I split my pants because I’m very pregnant…Namaste!!

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