At 15 weeks I can’t be any more grateful to have completed my first trimester. This first trimester has felt like I‘ve been waking up hungover every single day! You know that draining feeling when you’ve had way too much to drink the night before and the next morning you’re overcome by nausea, vomiting, dizziness and chronic fatigue? Except this time, no drinking had been involved and it’s every single day… and night. Why would they call this morning sickness? It’s every day, all day sickness!
Don’t get me wrong, I am not complaining. I refuse to complain about what my husband and I so desperately prayed to God for. I will however let the facts be known and the fact is, women are supernatural and are to be revered for what we endure in the process of bringing life into this world. For me, it’s just the beginning and I am so honored to be on this journey.
I’m looking forward to the relapse of energy that’s predicted in the second trimester.
I’m starting to feel it already. They say most women feel more like themselves again during this time and some even experience an increased boost of drive. I’m truly a busy bee, so slowing down has been very tough but I’ve learned to listen to my body more as well as our baby.
In speaking of listening to our baby, our child is clearly a vegetarian! Mama can no longer consume meat of any kind comfortably. I can’t even smell it without gagging! Who would have thought? I was never a pork or red meat eater but I’ve always enjoyed chicken, turkey products and especially fish. Neither of these items are tolerable for me right now. Because of this I’ve been losing more weight than gaining. (I don’t see it but my doctor and the scale says so.) Doubling up on green veggies and adding beans to my diet has helped me to continue getting protein and provide our baby with the nutrients needed.
All in all, I am still very overwhelmed and grateful at the miracle God has blessed us with.
I have to tell my doctor not to mind my tears every time we listen to our baby’s heartbeat. I’m reminded that it’s never over until God says it’s over. I’m reminded that His delay is not a denial. I’m reminded that He’ll always make a way in His timing because He’s a promise keeper!
I’m proud to say that I’m done with the panic attacks and the night terrors that forced insomnia. They were only a result of uncontrolled anxiety. I went for weeks not sleeping at night, maneuvering around the house as if it were midday; cleaning, cooking, watching tv or writing. I just could not sleep. I’m thankful for the peace of God that has since rested over me and has given me back freedom. I’ve been meditating on 2 Timothy 1:7.
My mom also gifted us a beautiful and powerful pregnancy devotional that includes various scriptures and Bible stories that align with the journey of childbirth. It offers life-giving prayers of faith, comfort and hope. It’s called I’m Praying for You* by Rebekah Tague. I highly recommend this devotional to all expecting parents, especially those pregnant after loss. It has truly helped us to capitalize on our joy and peace in the journey rather than worry and anxiety.
Below are some of the Bible-inspired affirmations I’ve also been reciting to myself and to our baby.
I am the vessel of a miracle. You are the miracle.
We will both live and not die and declare the works of the Lord during and after birth.
With long life will God satisfy you.
I am divinely designed for life to live and grow and be born through me.
I am an overcomer. I have overcome the issues and fertility trauma of my past.
I am more than a conqueror in all things including pregnancy and childbirth.
With God, all things are possible, including your life.
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