In honor of Pregnancy, Infant, and Child Loss Awareness Month, I celebrate my rainbow!

Rainbow babies mean something different to me. Every one of my living babies has been a rainbow baby following loss.

Carmen wrapped in a rainbow quilt at the beach - another perspective on rainbow babies

Author’s Personal Collection/Carmen Grover

However, I look at it this way… My seven angel babies make up the seven colors of the rainbow. 🌈

It may be subtle to some, or some may ask about my rainbow. Either way, I know what it represents. If not, I am always happy to share otherwise.

All together, they create such beauty and make me see the rainbows in life.

Carmen volunteering - Bump Day Blog, Week 21: Taking Nothing For (Poma)granate and Waiting for Answers

Author’s Personal Collection/Carmen Grover

There is nothing I love more than being a “rainbow” mama!

Wave of Light lanterns - another perspecti

Author’s Personal Collection/Carmen Grover

My Rainbows:

❤️ Amity Ella Lynn (12 weeks) – January 26, 2016

🧡 Will (10 weeks) – May 2016

💛 Kaia Belle (24 weeks) – January 2, 2017

💚 Baby X (6 weeks) – Chemical pregnancy, Feb 2019

🦋 Butterfly Baby (7weeks) – August 2019

💙 Jude Simba Joy (20 weeks) – Aug 2, 2020

💜 Zach (9 weeks) – January 2023

I don’t have pictures of them all to show, but that doesn’t mean they don’t exist.

Carmen and her family on a rainbow quilt - another perspective on rainbow babies

Author’s Personal Collection/Carmen Grover

I’m in a place now where it brings me such comfort to share my lost babies’ names, the rainbow they have created in my life.

Carmen's family in rainbow hats - another perspective on rainbow babies

Author’s Personal Collection/Carmen Grover

They give me all the color and help me to see life brighter than I ever knew before. It’s hard to explain, but there’s never a day that I’m not grateful for this experience, though it still bites hard some days. I only see light and peace in it all. This has only happened with the healing that they forced me to do, which I didn’t know I needed.

Carmen's family in rainbow scarves - another perspective on rainbow babies

Author’s Personal Collection/Carmen Grover

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